The emotions are still very raw. The pain, the vague and ambiguous futures we now face, and the decoupling of so many things. It seems insurmountable and exhausting just thinking about it.

I don’t have the words or energy right now. When I had gotten out of the shower he was gone, but the car was still here. On his computer was his Kindle app with one passage highlighted that absolutely gutted me. It swept my legs out from under me and caused me to collapse under the weight of the situation.

“All he had was nothing, but that was something, and now it had been taken away. “

Terry Pratchett