By chance or by luck, I don’t know but I choose not to question too much, I ended up in Seattle for about a week.

After a full day of people-ing I decided to go on a solo expedition.

I somehow found myself instantly gravitating toward the water. I don’t know how I knew, but it felt instinctual to just go walk along Alaskan Way. I found myself on The Great Wheel, taking pictures at first, but then just sitting with my phone in my pocket, taking it all in.

It was the same wonderment I felt when I first visited Stockholm; a place where I felt like I could exist and thrive. I asked myself if this was a feeling based on reaction to my current situation, and I’m still contemplating this question.

I’m currently sitting in my hotel room listening to Massive Attack’s Mezzanine while a backdrop of skyscrapers loom outside my window. It reminds me of a movie I like because its opening scene is a shot through a futuristic city’s sky scrappers, which then reminds me of a childhood memory.

Back when I was still in single digits of age, the city I lived in had one really tall building in downtown. It always stood out to me amongst the mountains, industrial towers, and desert. I think a lot of it had to do with the lights and how their cubic glows illuminated an otherwise drab environment. The coolest thing about this building though, was that each holiday they’d block out some of the lights with specific colors to make a shape, like an American flag or a Christmas tree. I just loved how this peppered the sky with a picture, whether it was color-blocked or not, in an otherwise dark skyline.

At one point I lived close enough to San Francisco and Oakland that their downtown skyscrapers looked so spectacular at night that I couldn’t help but nerd out. It was way beyond childhood memories and a real awe to me.

Anyway, the whole reason this turned into a novel is because I found a place and bought some stuff. Now I’m just sitting around and vibing. At one point I realized how lit I was when I sent the following message to my sister.

“Dude, I just spent 4 minutes brushing my teeth. This shit is legit”